Dear... Wife
On this day of September 16th I would like to ask for your forgiveness.
Ever since you got married to me your life has not been smooth. You were the most beautiful, most well read and educated girl in college when I met you. I wooed you and did everything possible to get us to the dream land. I did succeed but after the first few years of marriage tragedy struck us.
Ever since then I have seen you on a downward slope... from what you were back then to what I see you today. You had some much potential and I feel terrible that I ruined your life. I have not given you happiness in these 20 years and I am very sorry.
My family is really not the best family either - full of flaws and I am sorry that you had to be part of such a family. I will always cherish that your life becomes soaring again - where I could see you happy and successful. But Alas that remains a dream.
I guess all I can do is do my best to keep you happy til such a time we are on earth. I am very sorry and not a single day goes by where I feel terrible. Not a single day goes by where I feel I could have stepped away from your life and transformed you. I am extremely sorry.
Words and tears are just not enough. I express my apologies to you, your parents (who are gems) and the kids - all of whom could have done better with a real man in their life.
I am depressed, fearful and backed out so many times when I could have stood with you and family. Three times or more because of you had to hang your head in shame. Please forgive me. I don’t wish to die and leave you and the kids alone - I want to be here and do the best for you.
I AM VERY SORRY. APART FROM SEEKING FORGIVENESS THERE IS NOTHING ELSE I CAN DO… AS THE CLOCK OF TIME CANNOT BE REVERSED.