Dear... No One In Particular
First day home from the funeral. It's been a long ten days and the house is a mess. My foot is still broken, so I limped my way through the day. Cleaned the kitchen, did the laundry, paid the bills, watered the plants.
My four year old is clingy and confused. I love her and tried to continue being present and consistent rather than letting her get away with murder. There were Christmas presents waiting for her under the tree. They kept her occupied. A friend visited and brought me soup and her daughters played with mine. My best friend called me so I put Mr. Rogers on and we talked for a long time.
Now I'm drinking tequila and trying to sign the kiddo up for her next gymnastics session. The Christmas tree got really dried out while we were gone. I need to take down all the decorations but I don't know where to start. There's another snow storm coming and I know my neighbor will clear my driveway for me but I feel guilty that he'll be doing all that extra work. I wish I had gone shopping for groceries today but I was so worn out. Now I'll have to shop during the storm. At least my daughter will be at preschool so I can get some errands done.
Oh Lord help. Help please. How am I going to do this?