Dear... Stranger
Dear… Stranger
I’ve been thinking of committing suicide for months now. Ever since graduating high school I had a feeling that I just wanna end everything at this point on. My dad is unemployed and my mom is working tirelessly at day to keep the food on the table. Our family is at a financial ruin right now and I don't know what to do anymore to be honest.
I feel depressed and isolated every time I come home from school. I’m a senior high now and life is tough. I just wanna disappear and be gone forever. Like I never existed.
Teachers constantly downed us and my insecurity about being someone stupid is eating me to the bones. Genuinely I lost all hopes and just living day by day like a corpse inside because outside I look fine, a person who’s cheerful and happy, I just wanna die and at this point I also almost stopped believing in God.
I don't know anymore. I’m just 17 but I just wanna end it here. I feel like I never lived enough yet I lived through so much that it’s time to end it.
Mors mihi lucrum.