Dear... The Unspoken Words
Yes you, you reading this. Is it really very important to be a strong person? To always hide what you are feeling cause you need to be strong for others. Is it?
I don’t know but I really wanna know. Can it be very easy just to say things I wanna say and then can I just skip them?
I was never really a strong girl. I am sensitive and I get hurt. When I was hurt I was left alone I had no one. I dealt with it alone and I think that gave me power to control my feelings.
I want to say so many things to so many people, but I can’t. maybe writing it here will lose my burden.
You who made me think I am special, the one who called me her best friend. You know I still love you. You were very special for me and you knew it. But the things that you said about me, I really got hurt. I wish you could have just said it directly to me. But you chose him over me. I wish you knew how much I loved you. And I still love you. And I miss you.
The one who promised a better world to me. The one that made me think I was special for them. The one that made me re-live my life.
No I was wrong, you never loved me. All you needed was some company. I won’t lie that you were selfish you helped me but you saw your side more and left me when I needed you. Your company was over cause you found someone else. That’s the thing.
You who gave me attention and this time I am not blaming you. I was weak when you confronted me. I was so weak that my heart gave up all hopes. You made me feel something. You numb the pain. Was it good or bad I don’t know. All I know is I was a bad person to judge it. I was wrong.
I want to tell you that I may be be falling for you if you continue with your words but I can’t. Knowing that you are caring for everyone. But I am happy you see a friend in me that can help you. I am happy to have you as a friend, also.
I wish I could say to them directly but it’s all about time. And I’ll be okay.