Dear... Lover
I miss you so much. I feel silly for not being able to cope with not hearing from you for more than a week. I remember barely being able to withstand five days without at least getting a message from you.
This is the longest I've gone without hearing from you. Only a week, I know...
But I haven't seen your face or heard your voice in almost 5 months. My lover, you have left me, but it's because I left you. I didn't want to leave you but I did grow as a person.
I'm losing you, dear.
I want to be able to withstand not talking to you for a while. I need to be able to cope with my losses.
But that doesn't mean I won't miss you with all my heart.
I know you don't love me, but my heart is always open for you should you decide to enter it.
They're making it harder for me to see you. Setting limits on me, watching my every move. They're trying to protect me from a man like you - they were the ones who broke us apart in the first place - but then why do I trust you? Why do I want to see you again?
They tell me you are taking control of me but I don't believe them.