Dear... H
I've tried everything. I did everything to make you like me or see me as a sensible, kind, trustworthy person. And I think for a while you did.
Then you suddenly shut me out and refused to say why. I laid my heart on the table, I welcomed you with open arms yet you refused to hug me. You didn't want me around. You hated my presence. All I ever wanted was for you to like me as a friend. I tried so hard, you know how hard I was trying.
I have always been honest with you, yet you weren't with me. You preferred to pretend. You even said that I wasn't one of the people you were comfortable with. But I tried so so hard. I was so caring and supportive. I tried to show you I cared. I wanted you around but you didn't want me around.
Will you ever miss me? I don't think you will. I think I will because a faded memory, withered away. You probably will forget my name and what I sounded like. But I won't forget your voice. You say it's weird that I care so much but is it? I can't choose who I care about.
You never let me in and I don't know why. All you do is 'appreciate what I've done for you'. But how can you truly appreciate if you don't care? How can you care if you don't like? How can you like if you don't trust? How can you trust if you don't want to make the effort?
You used to feel safe but now you remind me of a painful place. Every time we talk you reject me and I don't know why. I've never hurt you. I hope you don't miss me because I want you to move on. I want you to forget about me. I hope to become a distant memory that you forget completely. If I don't matter to you now I don't want to matter in some years time to you. I don't want apologies either. I want to let you go because we were never meant to cross paths. It was an accident of fate.