Dear... Person Writing Me
I was going to do this conceit where my character wrote me, their creator, a letter. But that started to feel really weird, like I was turning myself inside out.
But here's what I was going to say. In writing this character, in thinking about this character, I've thought a lot about what maturity means, what it looks like, how to be happy, how to interact with other people... lots of things I'm not good at, how to compensate for not being good at those things. So, my character would say, I should apply those lessons my character has learned in her long life to myself. Because that character is me, really - just if I had more time to figure myself out. And in thinking about what that looks like, I learned a lot about the person I want to be. Kind, confident, still a dork, not caring what other people think.
I'm not sure any of that helps get me out of my current rut. I'm not even sure what "getting out of my current rut" means right now. (By the way, three-days-in-the-future-me, don't try to talk to your parents about this. Bless their hearts, but they will just say something condescending and ask like you're asking their permission, somehow. At best. Probably they'll start yelling. I don't know what the current equivalent of "just finish college" is, but I don't particularly want to know, either.)
But anyway. It's still good to think about. When I do get myself out of this rut, whatever this looks like, I know that I'll have benefited from being her. And that thought actually might be the start to getting out of this rut, you know? Because it means that it wasn't all a waste. (That other thing occupying my time lately was, unfortunately. Knew that when I got into it.)