Dear... Ex-boyfriend
I want to tell you how much you hurt me.
You told me you loved me and three months later you dumped me for another girl the night before you broke up with me. Your reasoning for breaking up with me was very unclear. You said you were unhappy, or you didn't know if you loved me anymore, or you didn't know why but you felt like you had to. To me it didn't make sense, three months before you broke up with me you told me you loved me for the first time. Three months is not a long time. I really want to know how long you actually loved me for. You told me you wanted to break up but I convinced you to take a break and to contemplate our relationship. During this three week break you were with other girls and strung me along for the ride. I had hopes you actually wanted to be with me. but you didn't. At the end of the three weeks you asked me to meet you because you made a decision. When I asked you want it was your exact response to me, while you were on your computer, "What do you think?" That was heartless. I loved you and I did everything I could to make you happy. And you broke my heart. Best part you thought it was inappropriate for me to keep, the things you bought me and you got to keep the things I bought you.
Our relationship made me so happy and taught me so much but yet I wish the relationship wasn't with you. You never made me feel good about myself. I had to ask you how I looked and all you said was "You look good" You never told me I looked pretty unless I asked. You never made me feel good about me. You were not a man you were a boy and I hope you treat your future girlfriends better than you treated me.
I truly mean this when I say I hope you are happy. I hope you’re happy the way you treated me, the way you talked to me, and I hope you are happy how you threw away our relationship for someone else you met the night before. I wanted to me be friend and the only reason was I would hope you would realize how much of a mistake you made. But that never came.
I hated you for the longest time because I realized how poorly you treated our relationship and how poorly you treated me at the end. I finally got over the hatred when I learned how to love me and how to make myself feel good about myself because you were never ever able to make me feel good about myself. You never said anything bad about me or how I looked but you surly never tried to make me feel good.
When you broke up with me it was the hardest things I had gone through at the time. It was really hard to get over you. I was diagnosed with depression and I wanted to harm myself because if you didn't love me I thought no one would. It took me a long time to have some self respect to finally get over how you treated me. You made it hard to trust anyone. I blocked most of my friends out because of what you did. This was your fault and not mine.
You were my first real love and you will always be the first love I will tell my future children about and a lesson for them to learn self love and not to rely on anyone else but themselves and family. I'll always have a special place for you because you were the first someone I ever loved truly. But I also wanted to tell you to go **** yourself.
Thanks for the 10 months of lies.