Dear... My Chinese Sun
How are you? It has been a month since I last saw you. I have been thinking about you lately. I miss you so much it hurts. It hurts how I cannot do anything to be able to see you. It hurts not having enough courage to message you. I am a coward, of course I know that but the great thing is that I know where I stand in your life. I know you are in a relationship, and I do not have plans of going in between you two. It's just that I admire you a lot.
I have been daydreaming a lot too, about you and me, different scenes and circumstances, with us ending up together happily in my fairy tale world. I might be childish doing that but that is the only way I could see an us together. it's has been a lot of fun doing that but at the end of the day, I cry knowing that I have a reality to face.
I long for you. I miss your smile that shines so bright. You were the person who pulled me out of the darkness that I have been in for the longest time. I miss talking to you too. You have this energy around you that tells me everything will be okay. You make me feel so much better about myself.
Of course, we can never be together. Never. We are two people from different countries separated by distance, by culture, by religion and by state of life. I humbly accept that. I am praying for your happiness. I always will. I miss you a lot. I will forget about you soon.
Take care my Chinese Sun. I promise I will find you first in our next life :'(