Dear... Jensen P
It's been four months now and I still hate you. You were the one person I always looked up to and made me excited to start my day.
Now everything and everyday seems pointless. I hate living and breathing knowing all the things I hate about myself were the reasons why you couldn’t stand me or wanted to be with me. I cant stop crying over you. I cant stop thinking about you. I cant stop stop comparing myself to your exes. I hate how I am the one person who accepted your flaws and called them gifts and you still would rather be would someone who broke your heart. I hate how you pitied me everyday and never gave me a clue you couldn’t care less about me. I hate how you never once asked about me. I hate how I am the one always trying to keep up with you, wanting to see you and wanting to be around you.
I just miss you but I wish you were gone.