Dear... Paul
I promised myself to forget you. You seem to know my weakness. You are always there. In my mind. Smiling. Every bit of you, every encounter I had with you is ingrained in my mind. Sometimes, when I am trying to concentrate, your name will appear in my head. I mean your name. Teasing me. Yeah I know forgetting you would not be very easy. I am still attached to you somehow. In my dreams, when I am not taking control of my thoughts, you are there... we are there... together.
I want to forget you, but at the same time, I want to see you. I want to not see you, but I keep thinking about you. I want to escape you, but I keep seeing your car and your name. I try to avoid you, but your name keeps popping up on my computer. I want to erase you but I can't help but look at your social media account.
How can I forget your handsome face? How? I miss you badly... I miss you so much that I hate you for being handsome and being you.