Dear... My Ex Toxic / Crush / Friend
I was prepared to get hurt, but I still did.
I had a crush on you before we even talked to each other, it wasn’t a serious crush but I adored you because you're very popular, insanely good looking, charismatic, witty, a member of a student council and most importantly, I thought you were kind. For me being a popular person at the same time as being kind to others is extremely rare; almost all of the popular students have shady attitudes.
I thought that you were different from them but I was wrong, you are worse than them because you wear a mask to hide your true colors. Suddenly you took an interest in being my friend and whenever you got a chance to be with me you always acted really sweet and genuine about being friends. My institution was telling me that you're not really the person you're trying to show people.
People who are close to you told me to avoid you because you just manipulate people to help you get what you want. You act like you don't know them but I didn't listen. I suddenly lost my crush for you when I heard rumours about your evil attitude and now I don't want to be associated with you. I always rejected being your friend but you won't give up so I told you to watch anime to be my friend. That was my condition because I know you would never watch anime and, to be honest, you're the type to make fun of a person because they like anime. You said it yourself that you find it weird so I thought that it was impossible for you to do what I said and you will leave me alone for good but after Christmas break you happily approached me to tell me that you watched many animes and you even tell me what happened in the animes you watched. Even you did what I said I was still distant but you still treated me as 'friend' I guess. Not gonna lie I liked that you're always bothering me and the look at your face when you saw me with my friends, the look in your face I mean the "Why are your friends with them but you don't want me as friend" facial expression I just find it funny and cute at the same time. It was really fun having you around me and you always make me laugh. Unexpectedly you opened up to me so I opened up to you too but you reveal more about yourself. Even though I act distant to you I was concerned when you're having problems with your friends, I helped you at the short time you had problems. I thought you're not being friends again with that people who did you dirty but you still did and you dropped me right after that. I can confirm the rumours about you are true, I think you just used me to get back with your friends who did you very bad and now you're acting that you don't even know me. I see it all now that you're gone, I was just one of the people that you used for your own gain but I know that I'm shining like fireworks at your sad empty town.